When Fear Sneaks In

Have you ever been so overcome by something that all hope completely abandons you and faith doesn’t seem like enough?

It was about a little over a week ago, everything was going great. I had my bible time, my prayer time, my worship music constantly playing in the background. I would say my relationship with God was awesome.

Until one night, I got an attack from the enemy in that strange middle ground of being half asleep, half awake. I was able to come out of that in victory, glory be to God, but that night opened the door to fear in my life.

Whenever I would walk around I would look over my shoulders a lot because I would feel like I was seeing something just outside of my peripheral vision. I wouldn’t stay up too late anymore, the music played less and less, I forgot to read the word most days. These were all things I didn’t notice was happening, at the time.

Fear came in and completely blocked my relationship with God.

 

The Breaking Point

It was about two nights ago when I attempted to attend a party, with people I don’t truly know so well. Which is a big deal for me because I get social anxiety. But I thought, “God’s got me, I can do this”. Now, I wasn’t wrong to think that; God would’ve helped. However, I underestimated the amount of damage fear had caused on my mind by this time.

How’d the party go? It didn’t. At least not for me. I went in and walked out shortly after and from that moment on could not move myself to walk back in. I cried, I prayed, I begged God, but my feet would not move. I was terrified. I had a full blown panic attack and then left. (That’s another story for another day. Ha!)

I spent the next day extremely depressed and thinking all types of things that I know the enemy himself was feeding me.

The thing is, if we’re honest with ourselves and really listen in to Gods voice then we know that what we are experiencing is an attack from the enemy. However, just because we know this doesn’t mean it’s always going to be easy to fight it off.

Why am I sharing all this?
God never left me. I heard His kind whisper that night telling me to give it another try. But I didn’t push myself out of my fear to listen. He constantly reassures me of His power, love, and authority every time I walk around scared. I have to purposely talk myself out of being afraid.

God told me this morning,

“Sometimes, it’s not about the storm as much as it is about how you come out of the storm”.

Has the enemy been trying to scare me out of a relationship with God? Yes.
Has it been hard to talk myself out of fear at night? Yes.
Has God ever left me hanging when I try? Never.

I have to talk myself out of fear, I have to remind myself and the enemy Who I serve. But every time I take that step of faith and proclaim God’s authority at that moment, God shows up. His love and comfort surrounds me.

There are times when it happens almost immediately, and moments where it takes a good fifteen minutes to manifest. Let me explain. It’s not that God is sleeping on me. The amount of time it takes depends on the amount of faith you have at that moment when you proclaim God’s Word.

Fear is simply the absence of faith.

We fear because we trust our fears more than God’s ability to rescue/protect us.
God has been an ever-present help in my life and on days where the enemy or life itself wants to try and make me forget that, I need to remind myself of God’s goodness and the promises He’s made to us in His Word.

Just as much work as it is to build a good close relationship with God, it’s double the work to protect it.

You might be going through a storm right now and you’re wondering what is the purpose of this? Why am I experiencing this? Honestly, only God can reveal that to you. However, sometimes we go through things to build endurance, to develop strength in the Word, to build our faith, to learn to trust in God. Sometimes it’s not about the storm itself but in the steps you take to get you through it that end up being the lesson.

So don’t let the enemy win! Don’t allow him the victory over your life!
Fight back in faith! Do it afraid and I promise you will feel God’s peace and authority fill you when you decide to take that step. Speak life into your mind. Whether you are fighting fear, anxiety, depression, anger, hurt, it doesn’t matter the storm. What matters is who are you going to turn to for help?

I am so grateful to have such a forgiving, kind, loving, compassionate God in my life. He understands my heart and He is working in me every day, even in my storms He reaches in and teaches me more about Him. He is so good and faithful. Don’t let the enemy distort who God is in your mind.

It may seem hard but it is definitely NOT impossible; not with God.

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God Wants To Help

I’m a stay-at-home mom with 3 kids whom I also homeschool. I know a little bit about being overwhelmed and overworked; unnoticed and unappreciated. I feel I do so much for my family because I love them, of course. I just think it’d be nice to be acknowledged for all that I do every once in a while?

I am with my kids allll the time and sometimes that task alone just seems like a lot. It’s not that I don’t love my kids, and I definitely wouldn’t give up homeschooling them. I just feel like I am always “on” and that takes a lot out of a person.

I try to explain it to people like this. Imagine, if you will, you go into work and never leave. You sleep there, wake up there, eat all your meals there, and while you’re in the bathroom your supervisor is talking to you through the door about an issue (of course in my case, the “supervisor” would be in the bathroom).

IT’S ROUGH.

There are sooo many times I go to my room to cry because I feel so overwhelmed with trying to figure out 3 completely different kids, who all need love and attention from me but in 3 different ways.

I want nothing more than to be a great mom to my 3 little blessings but some days I feel like I fail at that miserably. I get overwhelmed, and it shows. I get mad, and it shows. I get annoyed, and it shows. I give up so many times in my head on those days. And yet, by the grace of God, those kids still love me.

I could definitely take myself out on more dates and ask family for some help for me to de-stress every now and then. But I don’t, because ever since my heart started walking on the outside of my body I’ve been filled with anxiety and worry. I feel I care for them too much to just leave them anywhere without me. I know, it sounds a bit much, trust me, I know..

GOD TRUSTS ME, DO I TRUST HIM?

God is the reason I even have my kids. Each one of them was directly sent from Him. He trusted me with their lives and believed that I had what they needed to have a good life. He trusted in me to teach them about Him and life, in a way that matters most. He lead me to homeschool them and trusted that I would make that jump. He also believes that even when I feel like I don’t know what I’m doing I’d be open enough to Hear Him whisper “we’ve got this”.

God has completely revealed His trust in me and every passing day He does it again. He brought them to me so that we could teach each other something new about love, life, and faith. And He is asking me to trust Him in keeping them safe while I’m away.

You hear this and it sounds so simple. “YES girl! Let Him take the wheel”. And yet, I still find it so hard to completely let my mind go of worry when I leave them anywhere.

This might sound trivial to some or maybe not even relatable at all. These are my struggles. Figuring out how to gracefully manage a home while not forgetting to take care of me; giving God control of the outcome. But for you, it can look completely different.

Maybe you find yourself struggling with issues at work. It could be your co-workers giving you a hard time, maybe your boss keeps picking on you for some reason, maybe the workload seems too much at times.
Maybe your struggles are at school. With classmates or teachers constantly on your case. Perhaps you’re struggling with a new concept in a specific class.
You could be struggling in your home life. With your spouse, maybe your health, dealing with a loss of a loved one, maybe your finances are looking grim.

Whatever the situation you find yourself currently losing control in, God wants to help.
He wants you to trust Him with your problems and talk to Him about them, and just completely hand them over to Him. He WANTS to see us thrive. He WANTS us to truly enjoy our lives. Let Him in.

HE WANTS TO HELP.

He is asking you to trust Him the way He has been trusting you. Trust that He is listening to your prayers about your job, your bills, your marriage. Trust that He has it all in His hands. Trust that He is working all things out for your good. Trust that He wants you to have an awesome life. Trust that He knows the future and His timing is always on point.

HE CAN and HE WILL if you would just BELIEVE.

“What do you mean IF I can? Jesus asked.
ANYTHING is possible if a person BELIEVES.” -Mark 9:23

I pray the Lord continues to encourage you and remind you of His presence even in your everyday life. I know it’s hard to believe that He cares about the small things but He does. He sees you cleaning the living room for the 10th time today. He sees you in the bathroom at work flooded with frustration. He hears your cries as you grieve the loss of a loved one.

HE WANTS TO HELP.

Call on Him.
Let Him in.
Be encouraged and remember that all you need to do is start talking; He’s listening.

What does Gods voice sound like?

I know a big misconception people usually have about hearing Gods voice is that it will sound very much like Mufasa’s voice when he came to Simba in the clouds; very majestic and loud (Disney reference). While He can and has done that, it isn’t His go-to method of conversation.

Growing up I’ve always had the all to familiar question of “how do you hear Gods’ voice?” or “how do you know if God is talking to you?”. Typically answered with a “you just know” or “you’ll know when it happens”. While this is not too far from the truth it isn’t very clear for a young person.

However, I must say that I am in a season of clear communication with God and I feel so blessed and humbled to hear His plan for my life, my family, and my day-to-day goings on. I figured I’d speak out about the different ways that He has approached me in my life and hopefully that resonates with someone.

 

WISE THOUGHTS

This might sound hard to understand but He speaks to me in my own mind most times. I legit hear Him in my thoughts. Now, it sounds like my regular thoughts voice (you know what I mean right?) but it is 100% the Lord’s words and wisdom giving me guidance, or answering questions I’ve been asking Him. Most times, because I’m strange that way, I think out loud. Some like to call that talking to yourself, guilty.

Now, I’m talking out loud but what I’m really doing is directing my conversation to the Lord. This is probably my best form of communication with Him and a lot of times, and this part is so cool, He’ll answer me right on the spot. Literally right after I’ve asked a question or made a complaint my mouth will shoot the answer, His answer, out like how an actual conversation would sound.

I get when people say “you’ll just know when it happens” because I know for a fact that when He responds to me that it is not my own words whatsoever. However, you do want to be in constant communication with Him for this to feel more obvious to you.
I talk with the Lord throughout my day. Which is what Paul meant in 1 Thessalonians 5:17 when he said: “pray without ceasing”.

God is legit my best friend! I go to Him for anything and everything. In joy, or frustration, with questions and even complaints. He is my person (Disney reference). So doing your part in talking to Him every day is essential to hearing Him on a more constant basis in your life.

Disclaimer: God is God and He can speak to you through your own reflection if He wanted to. This is more of a method of keeping a constant line of communication open with Him.

MUSIC

This is a big one for me because I LOVE music. I grew up in church singing and lyrics are my thing. So it makes sense for God to use this method as a big one for me.
It’s such an intense and awesome feeling because He sends the perfect song at the perfect time to my Pandora list. He gives me literal chills as the words to a song I’ve heard a million times before touches my spirit in a whole new way, and answers my questions or gives me an answer to my current situation.

I know it’s Him because aside from the goosebumps, I get a sense of enlightenment when He corrects me. I am filled with peace when He answers a question for me. And I feel great joy when He shows up to comfort me or even confirm something I’ve been praying about.

DREAMS

There is a season for everything and though I feel like dreams isn’t very high on my list these days because He is just so active in my thought life. This is still an area He has used to reveal things to me.

Sometimes I understand them perfectly, or I’ll wake up and talk to Him, out loud, about it and He’ll reveal it to me. But for dreams, most times I’m talking to my mom about it and He reveals it to her and she explains it to me. It really is such an awesome feeling when that happens because even though it sounded mixed up to me, there was a message in there and by having someone else decipher it, it made the message more perfectly from Him.

IN CONVERSATION

This might sound like it’s repeating the first one but it’s not. It’s not about being in conversation with Him, though isn’t that what this entire article is about. It’s about being in conversation with a friend or church member or family member and God speaking to you through that conversation.

This happens to me a lot and it can happen in two ways. You can be talking to the other person, encouraging them, giving them advice and in your words to them, God reveals that those words also apply to you. You get chills or your heart drops a bit just because you know at that moment it feels like God has placed His hand on your shoulder saying “Are you hearing this? This is for you too”, it’s truly an incredible feeling.

The other way could be someone talking and, sometimes without them even realizing it, they are revealing to you a word from God. Something you’ve had on your heart that He’s addressing. Sometimes they do know and will often tell you “I feel I need to tell you this..” and bam! just like that you’re in tears thanking God for His faithfulness.

 

Hearing from God is truly one of the BEST feelings in the world. I say one of because there are so many other things He can do to completely blow our minds.
But hearing from Him has been something I have felt so blessed to experience but it has also been something I have been so confused about in the past.

If it is one thing I’ve learned in these recent years is that if something comes to your mind or comes out of your mouth or pops up in your life and completely surprises you and really reveals something to you. Don’t take it lightly. Don’t pass it off as your own or as you being too… something.

God is always listening and if you take the time to open your mind and heart to whatever He has for you, you’ll hear Him too.

These are just a few ways God has spoken to me. I would LOVE to hear how He has revealed Himself to you in your life. Please share in the comments below. I’m excited to hear your answers.